it’s definitely an adjustment, but it is truly wonderful so far. we work seperate shifts, he works 9-5 and i usually work 2-10 or 4-12 so we really treasure the time we have together, and think twice about complaining about dumb things. it’s just really good.
how are YOU sir?
Just a dude talking to dudes about love.
i’m getting married in 16 days.
i’m freaking out a little.
That being said, I think prayer is a pretty vast concept. If the goal is relationship, prayer becomes less about setting aside time to speak words out, and more about living a life focused on God. I rarely sit down and deliberately pray, but I often catch myself lost in thought or wonder about God and his nature. I think that’s a form of prayer.
I wonder if maybe we’ve reduced communion and prayer to a simple cause-effect relationship…I’ve given up praying to change the circumstances in my life, because I think it paints a skewed picture of the nature of God. I don’t think God is some control freak who says, “I’ll fix your life, but you’ve got to ask me 20 minutes every day for 30 days straight.”
Instead, I pray to change me. I think God can work in the midst of humility, doubt, pain, suffering, joy, anger, frustration, and apathy. So I’ve got in the habit of not hiding those things from God (as we often do), but instead turning them into sorts of prayers. My prayer life, then, isn’t really about constructing any sort of sentiment. It’s more about deconstructing the walls I’ve built to cover up what’s actually going on with me.